And it dawned on me.

Sick and tired. I won't ask why. Your will be done and pray i understand one day.

Machiavellian

Why haven't the last few days been rather fun? Have they? Can't be bothered anymore really, I'm pretty sure we did our part. Oh and congratulations Mr Bryan Chong or as known in our class as Legend for getting your name in the papers.

Can't really find time to think about myself, due to the angst instigated by the whole situation, that being the outside flamewars. Ridiculous now that i think of it.

I need to go back into my hole. I'm pretty sure this feud clash won't matter in awhile, but other things will, lets work on that.

Oh, yes, Work. Something i need to do desperately.

"Work, work, work"
-Peon

Irate

Glenn titles his blog posts. I shall do so too.

Its not the individual, but the actions of the individual. Somewhat annoying. What convinces us that we should not be infuriated with the individual but only with his actions, and how can we be sure that we love the person as we are to?

Or is it just me? Oversensitive perhaps. Maybe it's me who is quick to see the fault of the other while i may be the actually problem, after all, telling one to stop complaining is an exploding gun. The pot will turn black as it calls the kettle black.

Yeap, maybe its just me.

Why are you coming back to me. You shouldn't be here. I purged you out of myself a long time ago. I substituted you, how are you back? The same way before? I created you out of my mind but now you're back and I'm not in control. What do you want? If I could purge you once and see the truth I can do it again.

As for you, I see you're back. This time you make rational sense. Yet I won't feed you, you will bring nothing but destruction, after all, you brought me to act rashly and hence I now face consequences. Although what you speak sounds like the truth, you were only created to speak what i saw. I regret having you, but yet, I only have myself to blame for your existence.

Lastly, where have you gone? I let you trick myself with the lies you told. Such great fortunes you offered me, yet you were wrong. I can't blame you for speaking falseness, you were probably confused too. Yet, you had let me use you as a platform to rise above others. Surely you had done good to me. Help me purge the first one and come back.

Tea goes very well with Chocolate coated anything (Not including Chocolate Coated Bastards [laugh]) a lot better than Milk. Plain Tea>Milk.

Had swimming today, training that is, helped to cover for my teacher who was away being a senior rocks much. We had water polo after training and i was playing keeper when one of my Juniors started coming up to talk to me. He started splashing water in my face and I just let him do it then he asked me "Why you don't get angry one?" in which i replied "I'm a patient man." Wonder how much of that is true. If only i could always be patient. Stay calm, don't overreact, think thoroughly, execute perfectly and look smart. Sounds British, which i am not.

What do i do now?

Thanks Guys
Really Appreciate You

Just got back from Zong's birthday party. Happy Birthday Zong! Usual at his place, Rockband, Laksa and Soccer. Found the Chelsea V.S. Manchester United match rather hilarious. Ridiculous referee. Anand is now my new Russian friend.

Last night's Good Friday Combined Youth Worship was pretty awesome. Very much different from the past services but as Kenneth and Guan You agreed, the objective of the service was different, hence its execution being so different too. Could do with one of the old re-affirming in faith services.

I'm starting to turn paranoid. Probably everyone dislikes me. No, can't be, thats ridiculous. Not everyone has met me yet.

I'll try to sleep.